I’ve been thinking about writing this blog post for some time now, initially provoked by my annoyance with popular YouTube culture in which if you’re self-assertive and intelligent, almost everyone automatically assumes you’re a male even if they clearly see a female name and you have to correct them. Another issue in social media is when many guys know you’re female they make a lot of assumptions that you’re so fragile in so many ways. While that may be true of a good number of women there are also those of us for whom none of this applies and is just really absurd to us. What I’m referring  to is many guys’ conceptions of what “girl” automatically implies – fragile, weak,lacks sense of humor, censor your behavior around her, isn’t “game” and can’t share the adventures – things need to be made simpler, safer and less live for her. That isn’t every woman and it’s really a big insult to treat us that way.
It was well into adult life that I finally made the realization that women with their own strength who are capable of a high level of self-defense are not having the same experience – or orientation to life – that the other women are having. Of course all of this is personal free will and the last thing I want to do here is promote any form of “divide and conquer” or sexism. Quite the opposite.
I think my main point is that in my opinion, there was a critical error in a key aspect of human consciousness where people made the assumption that strength is “not feminine” and it’s not okay for a woman to be self-assertive and strong, most especially in ability to fight. And the women who drank the Kool-Aid on this, in my opinion, are often the ones who propagate the divide and conquer useless drama
that is feminism. Feminism in my opinion, is just another trap to actually dis-empower women because it’s main emphasis is on their vulnerability. It stems from a deep-rooted anger of women who believed that self-denial, self-suppression and being fragile were the big keys to being desirable and valid. The anger comes from a sense that their boundaries have been violated – and in many cases they have – but also from this core belief that it was not okay to be strong, that this would make you “not feminine.” This type of woman feels vulnerable and has become fragile for not having asserted their own self and instincts and in the scheme of nature, has become a form of prey. When that happens most of what they will attract will be predators. The media only makes this worse, promoting only “girly girl” stupid images of women whose only purpose is being an object of vice. I firmly believe that the entire drama of what became known as feminism is fundamentally a divide and conquer product of counterintelligence. What it actually does is reinforce the concept to women that they are victims and have to be angry and on guard or maybe even sheltered and create a massive barrier of anger between the sexes, which of course is their goal.
The only way there can be good relations and fairness is for a correction to occur in human thinking that “feminine” doesn’t mean weak or fragile. It means fully being a woman but also having the strength to back it up. That’s what nature originally intended. Now of course being a woman you can honestly enjoy the special attentions and all that a man can do for you, but you also know that you are strong and self-sovereign.The suppression of that state of complete being is what brought about all forms of the corrupt patriarchy for which many persons, both male and female
have been responsible.(But then, well…yeah of course I know
that whatever ground rules people try to set about relationships
is immediately toast when big passion happens. Reason is
out the window like a used pair of panties and an empty bottle of Jack Daniels speeding down Route 66.)
A good example is a story I remember about women soldiers on detail in desert terrain who died of dehydration because they were afraid to use the latrines for fear of being assaulted but also opted not to pee outside or in a sink or container in their tents because to do so was to risk being “not feminine.”And…like…they dehydrated and died.
Someone buried their hyper-girlish bodies and played taps. I personally can’t fathom anything about these kinds of people. If it were me avoiding dehydration would be priority 1 and any possible thoughts of a need to be soft and exuding beauty -if they ever even entered my head during a time of near death at all – would be quickly out the window and I’d be hydrating one way or another. I can’t imagine anyone holding their urine for days on end then avoiding all fluids so they wouldn’t have to pee – and then just kicking it, satisfied that their femininity was fully intact. I’m sorry but this is  insanity to me and a really quick way to become road kill of natural selection. Me,
I would be going to that latrine with an attitude of zero tolerance of anything running interference in-between. I guess if push really came to shove and let’s say there was a rogue mercenary posse of alpha men recruited from San Quentin’s finest waiting to tag team me as I approached the urinal, I would go for plan B of either going outside my tent or in a container and disposing it. Not happily as I don’t easily back down, but I am also aware of the concept “Pick your battles.” But I sure as hell wouldn’t be dehydrated. These are the kinds of women who then also fall prey to the Cointelpro ruse known as feminism. Because they have so much anger at how they have repressed and compromised their own strength and aggressive powers.
Whereas if you have not lived a life of self-repression and fully are in touch with your instinctual self you have no perception of anyone at all as your “oppressor.”
Next concept: warrior women. Many men don’t realize that there is a faction of women I will call “warrior women” who are not like the most conventional stereotype of woman and have a significant level of our own strength and capacity for self-defense, in fact could well function in traditionally male combat situations if necessary. And who don’t have the issue of anger at feeling vulnerable or suppressed because we have out own strength, don’t need anyone’s protection and are quite capable in even totally hardcore situations. You’re going to need us if these psychopaths in govt.really do think they’re going to move on taking away our inalienable rights. If that really does unfold, I personally will
be in the streets fighting for our natural born liberties.
Warrior women are fully women. We’re just women who can kick ass. And all the perceptions of women as “girls” and how things have to be scaled down and made easier and protection given in reality don’t apply to us. Now of course there are those mondo big-ass guys who are anatomically stronger than us, but we can hold our own in most situations of danger and hardship. The ability to do so comes from our innate animal and reptilian resources, a certain kind of crazy – like a controlled psychosis – and what my Germanic ancestors once knew as “berserker rage.” And it’s essentially an occult power as well – the ability to draw on higher resources beyond mere physical circumstances. Add all that together and you’re good to go. I will say it’s how I myself prevailed in quite many dangerous hardcore situations I’ve faced in life. Quite honestly I don’t need anyone’s help at all in being that person not fuck with. But it’s also why
I have a well-developed moral compass – to not abuse any power.
Perhaps I’m in a less numerous demographic of women, but I’ve had
to come to terms with the truth – that I am not a coward, I do not succumb to fear and I am capable of a massive and deadly extent of rage and violence when legitimately provoked. I do what I want when I want because I don’t feel vulnerable. The idea of having to somehow rally some sort of passive aggressive neurotic posse of
lunatics to beg for social validity or political rights is entirely
not in my lexicon. I’m a spiritual bliss kitty most of the time,
but if you mess with me I’ll fuckin’ kill you. I’m a reptilian
and I own it. All the rules about how to perceive and protect
women don’t apply to me. It doesn’t make me not a woman, just
a woman who was never stupid enough to give up her primal powers.
But that’s also why I don’t hate men – or other cultures – or anyone -because I am free.
Yet social conditioning has striven to wean both men and women away from their original powers of psychosis – in order to make them controllable-
but some of us- both male and female- never drank that Kool-Aid –
never gave up our essential primal elements – and were never broken by excessive bourgeouis domestication. The way things are going in this world right now,
I’d say we made the right decision. Personally if that makes me not sufficiently girly,delicate or cute enough for some people to consider me female, I can live with that. And they can all just kiss my feminine but fully Amazon-capable ass.
One more thing to add – let me clarify that no I am not hiding
my personal information on my blogs because I’m a coward – I have
never backed down from the counter-corruption work I do. I just
got damn sick and tired of people being dispatched to kill me.
I didn’t back down from any threats or resulting actions just
got really really sick and tired of that drama and when I omitted
my personal ID infos from blogs I finally had peace.That’s my story.