Just a quick note about a very vivid but quickly fading dream I had the other night…admittedly I have an on and off fever from what’s left of the flu, but this intuitively seemed to click as true and in addition, I am not one to be hung up on mythic symbolism – or lack of – in my opinion that is catered to the mind of the individual and what’s best going to lead to increasing their level of awareness. Anyhow…the dream just very briefly introduced me to what I later learned were 2 angels meant to counterbalance what I previously described as the overzealousness or excess intensity of the muse of Lucifer. And I think they also connected to the spirit of the larimar stones. In the dream, I was standing on a street corner next to two abnormally tall what appeared to be male individuals who looked like twins but one was approximately 8 feet tall, the other approximately 9 feet. They had this strange energy which I immediately knew was not human, it was more like this euphoric ascending quality related to clouds and the sky, which is also the recommended blue color. It was like a 50s film noir spy scene where we were to sort of interface quickly and unnoticeably and then disperse, like operatives exchanging important intel but as fast and inconspicuous as possible. There was no actual speaking, more like an exchange of energy, resulting in both sides better understanding their relative place in space/time and then quickly gone. The beings did not have wings at all but somehow I knew they were some sort of angels- although they also looked a lot like the aliens previously called “Nordics.” They had extremely snow white skin, like no human would have – no tinge of tan in it at all – supposed to denote that they were not carnal and just a sort of apparition of what’s more an intelligence or spirit. They looked maybe Dutch or Danish I was thinking but had ice blue eyes like a German and blonde page boy hairstyles. They were dressed entirely in white but in uniforms definitely the same as the old French foreign legion, with the cap with attached material veil around the rim. And that was it. One was more dominant and was the one who non-verbally just sort of demonstrated their energy – but like they had to be gone fast because they were not carnal and not supposed to stay here at all. Really they were light beings taking on a temporary symbolic form. And that was it. They were gone. I guess it was mainly just giving me these symbols to connect with the right energies to create a balance for excess lightbearer energy. And that was it. Very practical then gone. End of story…
This could be a study in and of itself but for right now I’m just going to throw out some basic ideas. The perfection of the Lightbearer is that its powers only work for you if you are working for the greater good and acting from a universally noble code of honor. If you defy that you will quickly find it gone. It’s got this innate checks and balances that never fails. You have to maintain a higher consciousness, a personal standard of ethics, love for others and a certain quality of artful energy to keep its interest. The Lightbearer is very busy and has personally taken on the goal and task of enlightening this world and pointing it to its higher purpose – it hasn’t got time for insincerity or trickery. If you piss it off, it’s just gone, simple as that. This honor code basically consists of making the Luciferian agendas your own – bringing enlightenment, liberating the oppressed, inspiring greater vision, protecting the fragile and innocent, and in general working to uplift this world and bring about an awakening into its higher nature and calling that they may begin to be realized in our lifetime. Moving away from evil and never using these powers to exploit or harm others. So in short, the way it works is you can access these powers so long as you use them to serve the Light and humanity. That’s also why it will give you so much protection. In working with these energies you need to break through any inhibitions or self-sabotage or fear you might have had and not be afraid to use your own power and trust yourself. On the other hand you equally need a sincere sense of humility and to always acknowledge that this is an ongoing collaboration between yourself, the Lightbearing medium and the Eternal Infinite Beyond.
Don’t be a hot dog or a weenie.Just focus on this very challenging process of bringing this massive influx of intense energies into a positive expression in the world. This may seem overwhelming and some will say beyond our rightful place as humans. But it’s not, it’s only the beginning of realizing who we really are. Aleister Crowley said it well: “Every man and every woman is a star.”
(I’m too tired to go look up all the bibliography specs but if you want them, just message me on Twitter.)
Blumetti, Robert:”Vrilology:The Secret Science of the
Hall, Manly P. “The Secret Teachings of All Ages”
“The Secret Destiny of America”
Jung,Carl: “Alchemical Studies”
Nietzsche, Freidrich:”Twilight of the Idols”
Picknett, Lynn: “The Secret History of Lucifer”
Rahn, Otto: “Lucifer’s Court: A Heretic’s Journey
in Search of the Light Bringers”
( A good mix of arcane + modern research sources – easy to obtain, for sure they’re all at Amazon)
To be honest I can’t say that this path, or any path at all is foolproof or perfect. I’d cite that quote by Auden “We are lived by powers we pretend to understand” and the overall infinite ultimately unknowable nature of the human mind and the endless cosmos. No matter how pious and careful and earnest you are, no matter who you are or where you travel in the universe….Shit happens. Somewhere along the road is some form of crazy blowback. But it gets better as you progress. The precautions I recommend in dealing with the path of Lucifer is knowing its excesses – it can be overzealous, use more intensity and force than necessary, and drive you nuts with this bombardment of all the energies it’s opening up to you when you are really tuned in, all the potential and not knowing where to go with it. I have found that for whatever reason the color sky blue or robin’s egg blue acts as a balm for this spirit, it’s innately soothing and has this balancing effect – and I started wearing jewelry with the stone larimar (pictured below). And this has worked very well in calming it down. It’s a raw and intense energy that depends on you for some modulation and balance. I also realized that this very same color blue is found on the Masonic apron and originally was intended to symbolize connection to Lucifer. That was so strange to me, it’s all so far out to begin with and here it is being validated by another source – telling me yes Monica I really dig that color. Another thing about Lucifer is it’s an essentially dualistic energy – it plays the rebel nemesis to somebody else’s orthodoxy – and over time they continue to go at it. The best known rivalry was Lucifer and the angel Michael – and I now firmly believe these energies are well into a reconcilation process, a balancing of the energies. So it can also be a good strategy to pair this path with another more mellow one and play them back and forth with each other. Because all paths, if pursued sincerely eventually lead to the same infinite source. All roads lead to Rome – not only Rome but your own personal dolce vita! Really the more you learn with mysticism, the more you will find yourself correlating it all into one path because it’s all just symbolism for the same infinity. But I’d say in a general sense, it’s good to pair this energy with whatever conjures a more mellow and loving and peaceful vibration – because if all you have is the cutting edge you will eventually bleed on it. But that’s still not to say it’s a dark energy – just intense. Less experienced practitioners need to be sure they have not been fooled by other energies deriving from the Satanic – it’s well known to try to sneak in there, turning that intensity into conflict. And THIS is where they got the concept of “appearing as an angel of light” –
it’s the nature of Satanic or demonic energy to try to slip itself in there. But more experienced lightbearers are well beyond this and know it’s a really petty and easily banished energy, nothing more than a minor parasite. This is not to say that the Lightbearer isn’t loving – but it’s the kind of love of a co-revolutionary, a co-conspirator, a comrade in arms sharing your secret mission. Or any kind of intense passion. It’s good to have another element bringing in a much-needed mellowness. Overall I’d choose an analogy like this – at it’s best the Lightbearer is brilliant genius, a fantastical muse, a great protector and the most infinitely profound spiritual guide. At worst it’s that annoying eccentric uncle that nobody wants to talk about who’s come along in the back seat for a long family roadtrip. Get yourself a surge protector for this power source.
Honestly I really struggled with whether or not I should put this whole thing out there publicly and even associate my name with it. As I discovered this path myself through some very radical experiences, I was forced to come to understand its validity because repeatedly it proved itself and I never did see it do anything I would consider wrongdoing. The whole thing just continued to unwind into this strange inner world of truth and potential and then I think lastly it was seeing earlier sources like Manly P. Hall’s “The Secret Destiny of America” that it just seemed increasingly true that these ideas had to be put out there for whoever might find them useful. Before I started this blog I asked for the proverbial “sign” about if I should be doing this – and nothing happened so I forgot about that. But the first night I sat down to think about typing I got a knock on the door well after usual mail delivery time and this postman not our regular mail carrier came up to the top floor, knocked on my door, handed me a small box and asked “Do you need this?” I had no idea what it was. What it was turned out to be a vintage jewelry item I got on EBay like 3 months ago and forgot about when it seemed to be lost in the mail – because it had no bidders and I paid something like $4.99 total and it just wasn’t worth the effort to chase after it. But there it was now -and what it was was this 50s lucite necklace that looked like something you’d see a woman in a Hitchcock film wearing – like the big baubles – but red, white + blue with large 8 pointed stars of Ishtar – comparable to the Morning Star. Like it was saying “yep, that’s America girl – start typing!”
In short, Satan is a repressed Christian finally acting out or a Luciferian who didn’t do the work and didn’t do their homework. What it boils down to is a tiny glimpse of half-assed enlightenment used to exploit those who don’t have it. Profiteering from one spark of light instead of waiting to see the entire rainbow. Taking a small amount of knowledge and power and using it for a quick power grab and some fast ego gratification and ponzi schemes – and enjoying it for awhile – then getting stuck in the negativity you have created, the stagnation of a diabolical closed concept system that can only repeat itself ad nauseum until it finally implodes in deadly chaos. It’s seeing wealth as the god, the all, rather than a key resource with which to become the architect building the world of the true Godhead. It’s never realizing that the game is a hell of a lot bigger than you think it is. It’s contentment in becoming the one-eyed king of the blind. It’s the betrayal and exploitation of love and basic well-being and the pure processes of nature and not knowing that this choice leads to only one endgame – self-extinction. Self-extinction through both massive world cataclysms and also a slow toxic morbid unseen downward spiral. And from this creating a poisonous culture that is a gradual mass deadening, not an awakening to the infinitely greater potentials of true enlightenment. Essentially it’s the ultimate stupidity. Like playing Let’s Make a Deal and telling Monte Hall you want to go for the Samsonite luggage and not the Porsche behind door #2.
Aside from the essential love and well-being and happiness that was lost, the vision remained unseen. The vision for the world as Heaven on Earth. As a civilization we now face the choice of going back and getting that wisdom, that eternal immortal vision and reconceiving ourselves and our world from what we will see – vs. continuing the self-destructive downward spiral of entropy following the path of the dinosaurs.
What is Satan on a more practical level? Basically a demon. A parasitic energy that fuels and feeds on fear. The unenlightened individual can use that limited power for a limited time to gain limited worldly benefits and status. But ultimately the negativity they have created becomes self-destruction and the restriction of addiction to false icons leads to an entrapnment of the self and soul which is what is referred to in the legendary “pact with the devil.” It’s using negativity to coerce selfish desires and a gradual self-destruction resulting from ones enslavement to them.
It’s a desire to cut to the chase and grab some of the goodies by any means necessary rather than waiting to see the bigger picture and build the bigger eternal vision. And then becoming stuck there for having been cut off from the infinite. Groups like America and the Aryans who became the Nazis made this same very basic mistake in being tricked by the Satanic. Hitler essentially served the role he was born to play in the human drama – the Satan figure that led nations astray. The truth is there had been better options, like for example all of the scientific and arts and mystical societies such as the Vril society and the Thule Society who began with the true vision but were led away from it by its misuse by the Third Reich. Had they remained on that path, who knows how the world might have developed instead? That’s why this sense of being collectively unfinished with Nazism – because there was once something very powerful and true there that could potentially be recovered and steered into the true direction and become very empowering and great again. Our civilizations need to undergo a process of distilling the Satanic from that which bears light. Remove the tyranny and oppression of all people and recover the real vision of the immortal world. Satan is the half-assed power grab before getting the much bigger greater picture. Satan is ultimately not a power, it is the absence of Light. It amounts to putting up drywall when you could have learned just a little bit more and become the Universal Builder.
So who are the people essentially drawn to this type of path? We’re warriors with insurmountable tenacity and powers to overcome yet at the same time very sensitive dreamers who feel things more deeply than many and take everything to heart and choose to chase a fragile vision rather than embrace the unkindness and mediocrity of this world. We’re endless seekers for something more, something beyond. We’re intense souls who would in this life battle our own personal apocalypse and emerge as warriors who serve the Light, warriors also wanting to be, in one form or another, artists and lovers.
So what is Lucifer? A muse and spirit guide and energy source who improves our ability to understand the Light as it is shown to us in our lives. It can take any number of forms, from a ghost black dog to an Angel of Infinite Abyss to a purely abstract presence. Depends on your symbolism of choice. Personally I see it most as a muse. In my opinion that’s really its true intent. To inspire, to enable you to bring back some of that fire of the Gods with the least amount of collateral damage. I think the truth is that this entity like most other beings in the universe isn’t perfect and is in a continuous refining process, an ascension. It began as the most primitive impulse for fire in the darkness and for a long time functioned a lot like an enfant terrible bull in a China shop. It began as a blind quest for Light. For evolution and a path to a higher order of being. And over many eons it’s been refining itself. The reason the Lightbearer rejected the original religions was a disdain for the tyranny and dogma and oppression that it had become in the human world. It was the knowledge from the very beginning that this is something bigger than religion. That it was something infinite that existed beyond its definitions and dogmas and presumed authorities – and it was impossible to experience it in its infinite nature by imposing any of those things. It was a desire to stay on the cutting edge and it was am awareness of a greater love and a much broader vision for humanity than that of obedient sheep. It was ultimately a realization that although we have fallen, the answer was not in putting our heads in the sand and humbly embracing earth as our rightful penal colony, but in brushing ourselves off and climbing back on the horse we fell off of and trying again – always fully accepting the consequences of that learning process. It was the immediate knowing that sheepdom is a horrible horrible dead end and the universe offers infinitely more. If we had to do it all over again, we’d again take the bite of the apple – and take all the hard knocks to follow – rather than remain a content sheep grazing in a safe but docile garden. America has bitten the apple – then made apple pie. It’s too late to return to an unknowing innocence. Instead it’s our fate that lies ahead to take this ball of hate and love and evil and miracles and distill it in a great alchemical working into a transcendant and rising brave new world.
No matter who you are or how you may now think you have done wrong, the answer is not in beating yourself up but in taking those lessons and that intensity and using it to uplift the new world.
“Sometimes when you’re looking for the light, you’re suddenly devoured by darkness – and then you find the true light.”
– Jack Kerouac
Another big set of misunderstandings is that all of this means that one “worships” Lucifer or expects their self to be “worshipped.”
This is exactly why Lucifer is known as the Iconoclast – it’s really a desire to be rid of this kind of egoistic dogma because all it does is reinforce ego and divisions. It was never meant to be a dogpile of rank. While individual will and liberty is key, equally so is cooperation and love. We are individuals who are also part of a collective or universal. Ultimately all there is is presence. It’s not a totalitarian tyrannical approach. In my opinion to any higher consciousness worship is an ego act and really quite passe. It’s more like being in the universal infinite presence. Your guide(s) are light intelligences and energies who can really do you a great service at times by pointing out the higher ground or the really much more vivid way when you are stuck in some sort of negative funk or stagnation or indecisiveness. It’s just this little flash that brings about this key “aha moment” and then you’re not stuck anymore. This can appear to you any number of ways from the most personalized to the most abstract symbolic. As long as YOU get it because it’s YOUR PATH. So then some will ask why Lucifer if you can choose from so many more pleasant benevolent seeming guides. And the answer is because the Lightbearer is the guide of those who have gone through the fire and seen and experienced the most hardcore then through that drama were enlightened, and saw the Light. But you’ll never undo PTSD by calling it DSTP. There’s a difference between those who have seen that realm of darkness or evil or danger and had to fight a battle from their deepest self to prevail. You’ll never undo the knowledge of all that stuff and you’ll never go back to “normal” suburban type life. You won’t undo that forbidden knowledge of experience. So a rosy-faced shepherd holding a lamb and singing Kumbaya isn’t going to cut it for you and you’re only serving as a huge nasty disturbance when you try to take your presence among those types of people. They’ve been untouched by this madness. Let them be. Go back to your crazy friends and be who you are and go forward with this altered but intense path. It is what it is. And honestly in most corners of the universe, “shit happens.” When it has happened it is what it is and you must embrace its “new normal.” Those are the people for Lucifer. And that’s why Lucifer is like the patron saint of America. Our mission, should we choose to accept it,is to rise above the most terrible into illumination. And we’re hanging on a very critical crossroads right now – between embracing and profiteering from the terrible vs. using it as a stepping stone to worlds much greater which the Lightbearers, after purification through the fire, can offer to humanity as a brave new world. This is our archetype America. It is what it is.
There’s so much to be said on this topic because so much disinformation resulted in such a fundamental misunderstanding of the Lightbearer and the Morning Star, especially the popular equating it to the lesser demonic entity Satan and assuming all motives are negative. The first wrong presumption is that interfacing with the Lightbearer means you are turning away from what you usually prefer to call God or the Light. Quite the contrary. The reason anyone adopts familiar spirits – and there are endless choices of them – is that they serve as an interface between the human side and the higher power beyond which is not human. It’s innate in all things and we derive from it, it’s like the battery or the mothership, but it’s a vast power that goes on infinitely endlessly well beyond the human scope or even the innovative cutting edge of discovery. Adopting a familiar spirit that serves the Light enables you to manage in such an infinite intensity of power and modulate it, find a moderate range of existing between the two worlds, of accepting the mission of the Light in this world. You need some form of communication between the carnal human and the abstract infinite. A guide enables you to interface with serving this higher purpose in your life, by finding a means of communication between the real and the vast and translate that into a new relative reality. The guide is like the translator between finite and infinite which ideally leads to what’s been called the state of grace or cutting edge. One of the biggest protestations from fundamentalist Christians is that anyone on a path like this “thinks they’re God” or is on a massive ego/power trip or is trying to diabolically exercise control. None of this is true. The truth is that on one hand you look beyond to that infinite energy or power or Light and feel a sense of humiity, awareness that you are not at all perfect but an ongoing work in progress and you will need guidance at times and to follow a certain code of honor, and to work in cooperation not domination of other beings in your world But on the other hand, it is an extreme fallacy to think that you do not have a self in your own right, to deny that you are part of the universal power that is known as God and to abdicate all responsibility for your path awaiting a “savior.” This is astronomically lame and it’s not why are here. We are here to gradually rise above our various falls from the original grace and find our way step by step back to that higher orientation because ultimately it is who we are. We were meant to be participants in the universe and co-creators in our own realm. You will never never never escape the ultimate truth that you have a SELF. And you exist in a PROCESS. And you have responsibility for your ACTIONS. If you don’t accept that fact and put both hands up on the wheel, eventually the car will crash.
The answer lies in embracing your self-expression, your creative power, your abilities – in the context of the fate and world that is in front of you. This is your mission of the evolving Light, should you choose to accept it. And that is why it’s helpful to have an interface between inner and outer worlds. Ultimately we are a self + also a part of the infinite universal and we are meant to collaborate in life between our fellow beings and the higher dimension. The balance lies in embracing your rightful power but not seeking to usurp what is not your power. And operating always to the best of your ability in a win/win cooperative approach. You will never escape your own power. Your job is to harness it in service of Light. My mind has always made the association of the balance of power with the twin pillars of Freemasonry. At least in my own mind, I always saw this as a symbol of a fundamental power balance – that which I MUST vs. that which I DARE, the orthodoxy vs. the potential. If you stand between those pillars, you’ll never lose your balance.
One of the most fundamental functions of the Lightbearer and often the way most people first stumble upon it – usually with much pomp, suspense and drama – is its role as protector. If you are truly on the path, following the code of honor and working for the objectives of the Light in this world, this entity is second to none in always – I mean always without fail, without exception, covering your back. One of the coolest things it does is very often, if you are operating on the right frequency, whatever variables of intel you have seemed to miss – those few odd angles which for whatever reason, despite your well developed vision, elude you, this spirit will at some point – most especially if it serves the higher purposes – simply hand you the intel. It comes in the craziest ways at the most unexpected times – and it’s just handed to you on a silver platter.
And it’s always flawlessly correct. No matter what it’s about.
And especially in great danger – it will immediately cue you in on whatever are your blind spots. And it literally protects your life from all enemies (both foreign and domestic). If you find yourself, for whatever reasons, unjustly prey on the world stage of evil predators, it will always without fail rush in to give you the intel and also protect you from harm- no holds barred stopping your enemies by any means necessary. And it will give you the extra power to prevail no matter what you are up against. It’s not by any means an evil spirit – in its capacity of protector it is doing so protecting all who serve the Light. But yeah, I won’t lie to you – it all can get way way funky and hardcore if push comes to shove. This is usually how most of us first encounter this spirit – through situations of great danger requiring the highest of your higher power. And then from that spark of intensity the truth will be revealed to you. Yet…the more you develop on the path, the more you also realize that you are ultimately only fighting your own inner demons. When you slay those inner dragons and move firmly onto the higher path, those instances of conflict appear less and less and a creative harmony takes their place.
You begin to move into your higher co-creative purpose. But on the issue of protection, no matter how you choose to look at it – as coming from the Light or God or through intervention of familiars, there is that one spot which you will learn does legitimately exist which I call “God’s Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap.” It’s a very rare marginalized function most people never have to find out about, but for those who have found themselves in that danger and mysteriously risen above it those who have faced the most horrible and terrible and seen that unseen hand step in on your behalf – you find out that there is a very legitimate higher aspect of “fight fire with fire” where the higher power will do what’s necessary to neutralize an extreme threat. When faced with these extreme dangers you have only two options – react normally and be terrified and immobilized – OR – reach for the higher power, viewing it all from an entirely other consciousness, even laughing at it – and acting from the instincts of that higher power. In these hardcore experiences that contain too many variables for one person to process and manage simultaneously, having a reliable familiar spirit is your E-ticket to prevail.
The greater the danger, the more your communication with this power will clarify itself and then you just run for the roses.
Then you fully on all levels realize that evil powers are only demonic, they can only operate parasitically on the energy of fear – and fear is an option. You have the choice to respond in human fear or to rise above it and respond from the higher power. You gain a self-control of knowing that fear is like a freight train coming by – you don’t have to get on it. And honestly developing a nice dark sense of humor is an excellent tool for not succumbing to fear and staying focused on the higher power. The Lightbearer is like your co-pilot interfacing between yourself and the Light beyond. The image below is an arcane depiction of Abraxas, the familiar spirit that is avenger of the Light.